Todays the Day Emotions are High

Today is the big day of the next chapter in kicking cancers arse!!

Emotions yeah we have become great friends

thanks to a fellow blogger I reread the events of that day on May 21st

and life has been an up and down roller coaster from there

Some highs and some lows

I am grateful I couldn't sleep that night and decided

to blog it. I can see how far we have come since then

Esp since some days it feels like we are fighting an uphill battle with

no chance of winning.

I only wish I had blogged better in the days, weeks, and now months since that day.

Today is the beginning of a new chapter and that roller coaster of new feelings

is back.  Exactly what are we to expect.

We are told fatigue is the most common and due to his location for his cancer

diarrhea is most likely to take place as well.  I am reading increased sensitivity to cold

Guess they forgot to mention that is already in place since surgery.

Carl has worn his winter coat much of the summer along with long sleeved shirts

in the past month even had to track down a light weight wind/water proof pair of gloves

A light breeze on our walks froze his hands

I am use to his hands being extremely warm so this is new

Use to be I could touch his warm hands and know the world was going to be alright

Now with his hands so cold I often wonder what will tomorrow bring

Our world stopped for a minute or several nearly 5 months ago.

We kept pushing forward and took comfort in knowing prayers and positive

thoughts were out there.  

Today as we begin this new chapter of unknowns 

I know this part of the battle we are not alone

It is ok to try and do things on your own, but don't let pride get in the way to ask for help, 

There is so much that need attending to that sometimes you can't

do it all alone and admit that things are NOT okay.

One has to do what they have to do and that is what we have been doing

Just like a squirrel getting ready for winter

Erratically running around to get things in order

We for the past near 5 months have been doing what it takes to survive

Everything the past few years I know in my heart were to prep for this very event

Only I wish we had been better prepared but then guess you can never really

be prepared for such an event as this.